so last night was an epic adventure that i would rather just leave stuck in the time zone in which it happened in. As of 10pm last night, I have been an emotional wreck. My Syracuse trip is being postponed till atleast next week or so. It's really not something i want to go into great detail about. but my heart is aching harder than i think it has in years.


when you love someone. truly love someone. embrace it. i know that you are following your dreams and making your life the best you can make it. but please do not be afraid that love will hold you down and keep you from those goals. love is a beautiful thing and there is someone right here who has those same goals and aspirations and would do anything to see you succeed. would love you regardless of circumstances. you're an independent, smart and strong willed person and you make my heart smile and butterflies flutter in my stomach. i wish you would just take a chance on me...


applying for jobs in Syracuse online all day tomorrow.
i need to get my college & high school transcripts into OCC
need to find some purpose in all of this.
i need to be in Syracuse starting my life.
this north country wasteland is playing head games with me.
i need someone to tell me they love me more than just a friend. =(