Dear Everyone: what i hate more than fireworks on the fourth of july

is stand alone on a bridge watching them while some very apparently happy couple is sucking face next to me. i am officially done with being alone. =(

finished all of my college stuff today for OCC. now all i have to do is wait and see if i even get accepted. everyone seems to think that I'm guaranteed to be accepted, so I'm not to worried about it.




I'm heading to Syracuse on Monday for a week or so. if I'm lucky and find a job, i more than likely won't be coming back. i love my band and i love this area, but I'm seriously almost 30 years old for Christ sake. it's fucking time for me to move on with my life and start preparing for the future. I need to get a career going and start providing for myself and for Aiden. I'm way to damn old to continue living this mediocre life. I'm not at all saying that the punk scene and the diy culture no longer has anything to offer me. all I'm saying is that i feel like I've out grown it in alot of ways. I'm still 100% apart of everything that punk rock stands for, but now i feel like i really need to just find my own way of representing it, on a different life path. we'll see what happens in the next few weeks/months.